And so it begins....

My sister, Elena, has been after me for quite a while to start this blog. I have been resistant to it for many reasons - primarily, time is too precious to waste sitting at a computer typing about myself. But she claims that I will have something to offer, can contribute something to the world of Moms as women and women as Moms. 

For now, I am a stay-at-home who supposedly runs her own architectural conservation firm, specializing in the conservation of architectural wood.  Before my daughter, Nico, was born, I was successful and accomplished. I liked my career. I've had great projects. And, evidently, my opinion does still matter. But since Nico's birth in March 2007, I've kind of quit caring. Sure, staying at home with your kid is hard, challenging, and overwhelming, but that's not it. Everything was thrown into perspective as soon as she came home. The question, "What the hell am I doing with my life?!" repeated itself over and over in my head. A new person emerged from the horrific sleep deprivation. And I've yet to figure out who that is. If anything, this blog hopes to provide a place for me to remember who I am - or used to be.

So. To do it justice, I intend to write about the unspoken things women don't dare mention in the world of Mom-ness. I'm going to speak some of my darkest thoughts as I drudge through long days. I'm going to share some of the ugly issues my husband and I struggle with. I'll discuss grown-up topics (politics, religion, sex) that seldom see the light of day outside of my head.  Hopefully, I can arrive at a place where I'm more accepting of myself and can approach the difficulties of this Mommy-thing with a fresh perspective. And I invite others to relate and join in the conversation.